fairynuff | you make my heart beat faster

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"I would kill you."

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"I would like to get to know you better."

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"I would fall in love with you."

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[ if you're ever cold, you can snuggle up against him. he's practically a space heater. ]

[ his gaze is downcast. ] Because I can't. [ he just can't. that's how he feels. but it's nothing like how he felt he couldn't move when he'd returned to the fire nation and had been confused and lost and so angry over how he felt he didn't know how to discern wrong from right anymore. he's just a little stuck. ] I have Mai. And I don't want to lose her again.

[ it's kind of terrifying thinking of being without her. mai's the closest thing he has to a best friend in the fire nation. she's always been a presence in his life, welcoming him back to the fire nation with a slight curve to her mouth. even with he deep breath in, it doesn't quite help him shift himself out from where he's utterly confused. exhaling, ] And then there's you. Either way, I'm going to lose. [ he's used to being a loser, but not to this extent; if he trucks on, there's a chance he'll lose cassie, anyway. he'll definitely lose mai if he does. and if he doesn't, there's still a good chance he loses both of them. ]

[ life is #hard when honour is involved. ]

( it feels like a slap to the face. mai. always mai. she isn't even here. there's a spark of resentment deep down, a little voice whispering that she could have him if she wanted, nothing was stopping her. she swallows it down. it's darkness, and it's bad for everyone involved, and this is zuko. her eyes rim with moisture and she pulls her hand free, opting instead to step back from him and encircle herself with her arms. she tugs at the hems of her sleeves, balls them into her palms. she can't look at him. ) She's not here. I am.

( and who's to say he'll even remember her when he goes back? it isn't like it would hurt him in the long run. right? unless this girl shows up here. cassie knows what that might feel like. she imagines it's what diana felt like when things developed between she and adam. but that... that, she couldn't help. still. the more he talks, the angrier he gets, and her tone changes. ) Why are you so convinced that everything's going to end badly? It's like you're hell-bent on making yourself miserable.

( her voice is angry, spiteful, but not without hurt behind it. she's trying not to cry, and it's painfully obvious. )

Edited 2014-10-17 05:28 (UTC)

[ mai could come, that's the problem. what's he meant to do if mai were to appear at a feast held in either court and he happens to do as cassie wants? it's another journey of trying to figure out what's right; he doubts it'll be as easy as following his gut, it easier said than done to tell ozai just waht he thinks of him. turning his back against his father had perhaps the hardest thing he has ever done in his young life. but choosing one person over another isn't something zuko believes himself ever equipped to do. he'd chosen a cause over uncle out of fear, but he had always chosen uncle when it came to him being pitted against someone else. ]

[ it's not an outburst; he speaks with a solemn tone, ] It always ends badly. [ but it hasn't lately. as far as he knows, he's with mai in the future korra, bolin, and mako are from. who else would he be with if not her? though, they haven't spoken of any fire lady, perhaps coming from a few years after he'd been crowned fire lord after the defeat of his father. but he has accomplished what he is about to set out to do. they greet him with a respect that doesn't seem forced. ] What am I supposed to do if she comes here? I never thought to ever think about being able to meet people from my future. I always wondered about what the future would be like. But I never thought I would meet people from it. And I have here. Anything seems to be possible. And Mai coming here ... [ complicates things to the extreme; she's a close friend, the only friend from home, and someone he had thought he'd spend the rest of his life with. she comes with a heavy dose of what zuko has yearned for since he had taken to his exile and properly returned home. it's peace. ]

I'm going to lose you both. [ even if mai never arrives, he'll lose her in some capacity, thinking of her less and less, wishing she were here while also longing for her to never appear in the drabwurld. if she were to arrive, he'd lose cassie. even if she never did, he'd close cassie again by putting up walls and pushing her away. regardless of what he decides, he ends up walking a lonely road without even an ostrich horse to keep him company. ]

you make my heart beat faster

yes.

oh ok

please cry into this jar ...