fairynuff | you make my heart beat faster

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"I would kill you."

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"I would physically or emotionally hurt you."

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"I would like to get to know you better."

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"I would spend time/have fun/be friends with you."

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"I would rescue you/fight by your side."

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"I would hug you or hold your hand."

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"I would kiss you."

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"I would date you."

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"I would have sex with you."

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"I would fall in love with you."

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[ there'd be a massive block of introspection of zuko internally metaing over the father comment, but cassie's — ]

[ — well. she's doing the thing. ]

[ for the first few seconds, he's shocked, taken off-guard when he can almost predict the movements of whoever it is he happens to be battling. but this isn't a battle, nor is it even an agni kai. his wide eyes close on instinct as he opens his mouth beneath hers, the hand she's not currently occupying threads through her hair. ]

[ it's as if the feel of her hair wakes him up from what it is they're doing. he pulls away, but not without the back of the hand threaded through her hair brushing lightly down her cheek before it flops uselessly against his side. ]

You talk about me being confusing.

[ it's unfortunate he doesn't have a coupon to shove between them in a bid to distract her. ]

( cassie's just starting to lean in more, to get a grip on confidence, to get into it, when his lips leave hers behind. there's a clench of insecurity in her stomach; what if he never talks to her again. worse - what if kissing him means he's put off by her now, enough to hold her at arm's length, never letting her any closer? the fear flashes across her face for less than a split second before her eyes catch his. at least he's not pushing her away completely. his hand in her hair feels nice... even better on her cheek.

then the moment's over, and her eyes fall away just like his hand. )

I like you. For you. And since you don't like you, enough that you don't listen when I tell you I do, I -- ( she pauses for a moment to breathe, and gather herself back up because this feels a little like rejection. ) - thought I would show you, instead.

[ he is pretty dense. but where she has been stating it in very simple terms in english her own intentions, even the kiss makes things even more muddled up and difficult to process. ]

And ... [ he isn't even sure where he's going with this. he really should step away, but he doesn't. ] You still like me. [ since nothing seems to deter her, he can only guess as much. it's odd having someone be so stubborn in their belief in him, but it's a source of even more confusion and discomfort zuko's uncertain of how to even tackle. ] I like you, too ...

[ but, you know, inner peace, stilettos, him being dumb, her deserving better, etc etc. ]

( she tilts her head to the side slightly, brows knitting together. ) Of course I still like you. I wasn't kissing you for my health. ( the last couple of words come out as a chuckle, and her lips form a smile. she finds one of his hands, a free hanging one, and laces her fingers with his. he looks so uncertain still, though, and it worries her. ) So, then... why does it feel like you're about to tell me you can't do this?

[ if you're ever cold, you can snuggle up against him. he's practically a space heater. ]

[ his gaze is downcast. ] Because I can't. [ he just can't. that's how he feels. but it's nothing like how he felt he couldn't move when he'd returned to the fire nation and had been confused and lost and so angry over how he felt he didn't know how to discern wrong from right anymore. he's just a little stuck. ] I have Mai. And I don't want to lose her again.

[ it's kind of terrifying thinking of being without her. mai's the closest thing he has to a best friend in the fire nation. she's always been a presence in his life, welcoming him back to the fire nation with a slight curve to her mouth. even with he deep breath in, it doesn't quite help him shift himself out from where he's utterly confused. exhaling, ] And then there's you. Either way, I'm going to lose. [ he's used to being a loser, but not to this extent; if he trucks on, there's a chance he'll lose cassie, anyway. he'll definitely lose mai if he does. and if he doesn't, there's still a good chance he loses both of them. ]

[ life is #hard when honour is involved. ]

( it feels like a slap to the face. mai. always mai. she isn't even here. there's a spark of resentment deep down, a little voice whispering that she could have him if she wanted, nothing was stopping her. she swallows it down. it's darkness, and it's bad for everyone involved, and this is zuko. her eyes rim with moisture and she pulls her hand free, opting instead to step back from him and encircle herself with her arms. she tugs at the hems of her sleeves, balls them into her palms. she can't look at him. ) She's not here. I am.

( and who's to say he'll even remember her when he goes back? it isn't like it would hurt him in the long run. right? unless this girl shows up here. cassie knows what that might feel like. she imagines it's what diana felt like when things developed between she and adam. but that... that, she couldn't help. still. the more he talks, the angrier he gets, and her tone changes. ) Why are you so convinced that everything's going to end badly? It's like you're hell-bent on making yourself miserable.

( her voice is angry, spiteful, but not without hurt behind it. she's trying not to cry, and it's painfully obvious. )

Edited 2014-10-17 05:28 (UTC)

[ mai could come, that's the problem. what's he meant to do if mai were to appear at a feast held in either court and he happens to do as cassie wants? it's another journey of trying to figure out what's right; he doubts it'll be as easy as following his gut, it easier said than done to tell ozai just waht he thinks of him. turning his back against his father had perhaps the hardest thing he has ever done in his young life. but choosing one person over another isn't something zuko believes himself ever equipped to do. he'd chosen a cause over uncle out of fear, but he had always chosen uncle when it came to him being pitted against someone else. ]

[ it's not an outburst; he speaks with a solemn tone, ] It always ends badly. [ but it hasn't lately. as far as he knows, he's with mai in the future korra, bolin, and mako are from. who else would he be with if not her? though, they haven't spoken of any fire lady, perhaps coming from a few years after he'd been crowned fire lord after the defeat of his father. but he has accomplished what he is about to set out to do. they greet him with a respect that doesn't seem forced. ] What am I supposed to do if she comes here? I never thought to ever think about being able to meet people from my future. I always wondered about what the future would be like. But I never thought I would meet people from it. And I have here. Anything seems to be possible. And Mai coming here ... [ complicates things to the extreme; she's a close friend, the only friend from home, and someone he had thought he'd spend the rest of his life with. she comes with a heavy dose of what zuko has yearned for since he had taken to his exile and properly returned home. it's peace. ]

I'm going to lose you both. [ even if mai never arrives, he'll lose her in some capacity, thinking of her less and less, wishing she were here while also longing for her to never appear in the drabwurld. if she were to arrive, he'd lose cassie. even if she never did, he'd close cassie again by putting up walls and pushing her away. regardless of what he decides, he ends up walking a lonely road without even an ostrich horse to keep him company. ]

you make my heart beat faster

only because it's a meme comment, i will show you mercy for once ...

tyvm i appreciate such generosity

your soul now, please

but you made me cry would i give my soul to a crymaker would i WOULD I??

yes.

oh ok

please cry into this jar ...